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What did you wish for...?

"Somewhere in between all the mind games, lies, and seduction, I fell for you. Somewhere in between all the broken promises, manipulation, and heartaches, I got over you. But I guess I fibbed a few times, too. Remember all those times I swore I needed you? Well consider them lies because, baby, here I am without you and I survived."

- Lil Wayne

3 years.

Update #2

OMG....I'm such a bad blogger....
I haven't blogged properly in like a month now!
Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry! life has been kinda hectic lately...and to be honest... really really tough. =/

1. So the usual... uni and work. Ahhhh. most major assesssments are over now, but starting finals in a couple of weeks. So so so screwed, since I haven't actually started anything. You know that feeling you get when there's just too much work, and you don't know where to start...so you dont start at all? hahaha yeah... that's me. everyday. So jealous of the kids who are already on holidays... ):

2. Work. as in.. part time job, work. It's so tiring :'( everytime I have work, I come exhausted, and I don't end up doing anything for the rest of the night. and it takes up so much of my time these days. Fridays are the worst, coz I have uni from 10-5 then work from 6-10. Leave the house at 9, get home at 11. Somtimes we close late too, coz it gets kinda busy on friday nights, so I get home close to midnight. And saturdays/sundays when I have my 12 hours shifts. -.-

3. Mixed emotions about a certain aspect of my life. - the dilemma of moving forward, or taking a step back. I don't know what else to say, because I, myself don't even know what i'm thinking. so so confused ):

4. Life in general. So tired of life and all it's shit. There are so many problems, that I don't know how to fix and it's all piling up. I find myself so unhappy everyday, and no one seems to understand. I don't know how much longer I can take this.

Just really need a holiday.

P.s. I promise to blog more from now on!

我想到一個沒有人認識我的地方，重新出發。

It's all getting a bit too much...

Quick Update!

Hey guys....sorry, I know I've been super MIA recently. But a lots been happening.

Soo much stuff to do for uni this first week back. On friday, I have a marketing exam, marketing presentation, a pain in the ass economics assignment and a 2500 word human resource essay due. Then the week after, I have another 2500 essay due for marketing. OMGGG 我快爆肝了!! Really starting to regret procrastinating the first week of mid-sem break. Oh high school, how much I miss you.

I also had my left wisdom teeth removed a few days back. They've been causing me troubles for a little while, but never really bothered to do anything about it. But a couple weeks back, they were really really hurting, and the bottom one was starting to dig into the wrong places. So called the dentist and got them removed a week later. The anesthetic needles were a BITCH. I could feel the needle go in, and the liquid coming out. Awmahgawd, worst feeling ever. But the rest of the procedure was pretty smooth. Everythings OK now, cept for the fact that it took me about 3 days to get onto some real food (lived off soup, icecream water and congee for 2 days) and it still feels kinda weird to eat sometimes. Also one of the ends of my bottom stitch is poking into my cheek. not cool. Luckily im getting the stitches taken out in a couple days time, so im not too concerned.

Anyway, that was just a quick blog/update since I had disappeared for so long. Hope life is treating you all well. x

It's not about your scars, it's all about your heart.

R U OK?

One lost soul...

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My Life in Photos #1

Sorry.. been MIA for a little while. But if I could use 3 words to describe the past few days..... so.damn.tired.

Friday, 26 August.

Soy Latte to keep me going

Uni and work... Crazy hectic day. Had Uni from 10am-5pm. Then work from 6pm-10pm. Well, we were supposed to close at 10, but it was super busy, so we ended up closing at 10:30... which meant I got home just before 12. Shower, chilled, then bed. Ahhhh exhaustion.

Saturday, 27 August.

Guylian Shake. Yum.

Stella's birthday dinner. Ate at Mizuya then dessert at Guylian in Circular Quay. Didnt actually eat much at Mizuya, but the bill still ended up being kind of expensive... considering I only ate a little bit. > : [ Then at Guylian, ordered a blueberry cheesecake and a Guylian shake... YUM... but felt soooo sick afterwards.

Sunday, 28 August.

Sydney Taiwan Festival. Yay for Taiwan! For all those that know me well, would know that I love my country and my people. I can definately say the festival was pretty successful.. There were a few taiwanese food stalls, as well as some that sold merchandise representative of the taiwanese culture, they had performances on stage and a lot of people turned up to see what it was all about. (Also bumped into quite a lot of people, which was nice :) ) Weather was really nice too!
I must say...Taiwan has really come a long way. From "Where the hell is Taiwan?" to "Oh yeah, I know Taiwan. It's a really nice place!" More and more people are getting to know about Taiwan. Many times at work, people would ask where i'm from, and when I say Taiwan, they either say they know about Taiwan, heard about it, want to go, or have already been and loved it. So congratuations to Taiwan :D

Monday, 29 August. (Today)

Fell sick a few days ago, but it got really bad today. Blocked nose, sore throat, coughing, sneezing etc.. didnt sleep well last night either. So decided to make myself a strawberry smoothie. Added a little too much milk by accident, but it was still nice :)

I need to stop being a pig.

I need to stop eating. Like srsly.........too.much.junk.food.

I swore to myself a couple of months ago, that i would start eating healthy and try to tone down a little for my sisters wedding at the end of the year. So what happened to all that? i have no idea.
So for the past couple of months, I've been trying to eat healthy and eat less (not to the point where im starving myself, so don't worry) - that means eating half of what I usually eat, eat more during lunch and less during dinner, and stop with the midnight snacks. It was all well and good for the first month and a half....but these last two weeks have been... crazy eating.
I eat when i'm bored, I eat through classes - especially lectures,...coz we all know what they're like, I eat coz I feel like munching on something, I eat when im not even hungry, I eat when im stressed/pissed... argh.
So basically, all that hard work and effort I put in for the first month and a half is gone - in just a week or two. You know that feeling when you're persistent about something, and when you break your own rules, you just let yourself go completely? Yeah, well.. that's me right now.
Dont believe me? Here's what I ate today:
- 9:30am, before leaving for uni, made myself a sandwich for brekkie and a cup of milk
- 1pm, my break, had a huge ass baguette thing for lunch. It was kinda too much, but it was good so I couldnt stop myself. Also had a couple of macarons my friend made.
- 3:30pm, Came home from uni, felt like eating something, tho wasnt really hungry. Made myself a sandwich, snacked on chips and cookies. Soon after, felt tired and went for a nap... with a full stomach.
- 6pm, woke up had a shower. Then dinner. Obviously I wasn't hungry, but I ate anyway.
(Then, I usually get super hungry around 11:30pm-midnight-ish...so I munch on something then)
A little too much food? I think so. And this has been my life on replay for the past 2 weeks. And recently, we've been eating out a lot.. coz of people's birthdays, having dinner with family friends etc. so that doesnt help either.
Whyyyyy does this have to be so hard ): And for a foodie like me, it's like mission impossible. hahaha

I also need to get my sleeping patterns right... Sleeping at 2am, waking up at 8am, napping at 5pm everyday is not normal.

I hate big words.

I'm trying to read a journal article for marketing.. We were told to read it, and write a half-page summary on it. All well and good.....but here comes the problem... I dont get what the articles about, because there are too many DAMN BIG WORDS IN IT! Doesn't help that the article is 20 pages long either.
And its due tomorrow....ahh, what am I going to do.

Life would be so much easier if everyone just spoke in plain simple english.

Out of nowhere.

I am so damn exhausted.
... and unhappy.

This one is going to hurt for a little while.

- Cindy.

not CHINA-town.

Just got home from work.... Ahh, so tired... I need some sleep.
I'm meant to be getting some work done, but really not in the mood at the moment, so decided to blog for a little bit :)
I need to rant a little... (Sorry, bear with me. If you don't like rants, don't read this.)

So there is something that really pisses me off at work...
ASIANS, PLEASE. Just coz I work in chinatown, it doesn't literally mean you're in CHINA-town. OK?! This is Australia, we dont bargain. k? yes? thanks. I really don't understand why people get the perception that just coz they're in chinatown they're allowed to be all rude, demand for discounts, and expect me to give them one.
Like..Ok, I get it. It's may be a "tradition" to bargain in asian countries... I can accept a little bargaining. But to ask if you can get something for like 5 dollars when it's clearly labelled as 30...IS NOT ON.... like what the hell people...when i say 30% off, i mean 30% off... not 80% off.. do you not understand english? Fine. I speak chinese, bring it on.
Seriously....when i'm at work, every second person asks me for a discount.. and when I can't give them one, or if my discount is too "little", they'll stand there for like 10 minutes bickering with me. PLEASE, I have better shit to do.. customers to serve, shit to clean, stuff to stock. DO NOT WASTE MY TIME. Some people will even stand there and argue with me for minutes, over like...20 cents. Come on now... really?!
I would just give it to them, but if I were to do that for every customer, what is the business going to earn, right?!
Worst thing is, some people walk in full suited up in branded stuff; LV bag, Gucci wallet, Burberry jacket, fat ass ring probably worth tens of thousands of dollars etc... and they stand there, argueing with me over 50cents. WHAT THE FUCK.
I'm seriously over people demanding for discounts. This is Australia, not China... you're in the wrong fucking place. Go back to your homeland buddy.

Anyway...on a lighter note... spent most of my night chatting away on the phone with Grace. Caught up on some gossip, bitched a little, laughed a lot. This girl always knows how to make me smile.
Grace, if you're reading this. ILY :) and nappy. HAHAHAHA

p.s. thank you for the blog challenges. I shall get started sooooooon!

My favourite photo of all time. <3

- Cindy.

Fatty.

So...I just came home from a late night run to Pancakes on The Rocks with the family.
Yes, I feel like a fatty right now but couldn't resist! hahaha
I guess, eating healthy will have to wait till tomorrow...

- Cindy.

Three Years Ago, Today...

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Three years ago today... he entered my life.


"Never mind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you, too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said...
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead..."

NOT HAPPY.

So the story is: For the past two weeks, we've had people stay with us. Two girls, one 18 and one 18 in a month. The girl who's turning 18 is my 'niece' and the one who's already 18 is her friend. (Niece: My cousin's daughter)

During their two weeks trip down to sydney, they've pretty much had all expenses covered by us; food, drinks (except the meals that they went out and had themsleves), electricity bills, water bills, phone bills, taking them around sightseeing, driving them places etc. We've also had to clean for them, do their laundry, cook for them. SO DAMN TROUBLESOME..and this is why I'm so reluctant about having people stay with us...
sound bad enough? here comes the worst part...
They left today - finally. We dropped them off at my aunts, they're staying there for the night then leaving sydney for home tomorrow night. But before leaving, they didnt even say a single "thank you". RUDE RUDE AND RUDE... after all the things we've done for them.. this is what we get? a few good byes, and nothing else.

Like I get it, they're 18...younger than me and may be 'immature', but I was never like that when i was 18! COME ON. Like if you're going to disturb someone for 2 weeks and trouble them, AT LEAST BE APPRECIATIVE. We're not your maids, we're not your drivers...so dont fucking expect us to do everything for you!
Not only that... If you're staying with people, don't make life any harder for them than it already is... I have too much to say.. but just as an example.. they were picky about their food. For breakfast, they only ate toast, and WHITE TOAST (of all the other things we offered.. cereal, danishes, muffins, etc), they don't drink milk (because apparantly australian milk tastes 'odd') - they only drink soy milk... stuff like that... srsly, what the fuck.
Another example.. *Background story: When my brother gets home from work at night, he would call us at chatswood, and tell us he's nearly at lindfield, so we can leave to go pick him up from the station*... So one day, they're on the train with my brother, and my brother does the same thing... Next day, they're coming home from the city, and we get a call from them telling us they're on the train home and that they're at chatswood already... implying that we need to go pick them up.. This didnt just happen once. It happened pretty much everyday for the remaining time they were staying with us. WHAT THE FUCK. EXCUSE ME. we're not your chauffeurs.

Today..
The whole time they were saying their goodbyes, I was just waiting....waiting for that one "thank you"... but it never came. Ok, fine. Whatever, they can forget to say thank you to me, or my sister, or my brother - despite all our contribution. But at least say it to my parents, right?! They've put in so much energy and effort in accomodating them, yet they get nothing in return but a "goodbye". COME ON, REALLY?! WHO THE HELL DO THEY THINK THEY ARE.
Electricity bills, water bills, phone bills, whatever. It was never about the money. It was about the appreciation behind it... They're 18, not kids anymore.. they should know better.

To be fair, i'll say that i wasn't expecting much from my niece - afterall... she's related to us, we're family. I can accept the fact that she's comfortable around us and can at times take us for granted, but this friend of hers?!?! Who the hell does she think she is to just wander in here, do her shit, then leave. Like...I'm not close to her or related to her in anyway, so don't act all casual and breezy with me. WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOUR MANNERS?!
I hate to accuse my cousin and everything, coz she's genuinely a nice person, but she obviously doesnt know how to raise children, and she obviously forgot to teach her kids proper manners.

Anyway...sorry about that rant. I'm just genuinely PISSED about this whole situation, and needed somewhere to let it all out.
Maybe i'm overreacting... I don't know, but I HATE people with no manners. enough said.

Take care.
- Cindy.

I'm so tired right now, that I can't be bothered to edit this post. Sorry if bits dont make sense, LOL.

Some people are just annoying.

Uni tomorrow ):

So...I have a headache. Really, whats up with me getting headaches all the time?! It's not too bad right now, but I can definately sense it getting worse by tonight...

Uni's starting tomorrow... after 7 weeks of holidays. What have I been doing these whole time? nothing. To be completely honest, I really don't know where all my time went. Most of the time, I just stayed home, watched dramas/movies... sometimes chilled with a few friends, went grocery shopping with my mum every couple of days... but that seems to be about it. =/
Now that holidays are nearly over, im just trying to make the most out of the last few hours of freedom that I have.
Ahhh.. uni is such a bitch. Hmm, lets put it this way... I love the freedom - I get to do whatever I want without anyone caring, but the amount of work gets really crazy sometimes... and just as I thought things couldn't get any worse with the HSC.
Now that i think about it, the HSC was such a breeze... and completely overrated. You study and work your ass off for a couple of years, just to graduate with a single double-digit number. Then after that, everything you've studied goes to waste, coz you'll never need it again. They made it sound as if your life would be over if you didn't do well enough... If only someone told me this earlier....

Anyhow, enough of ranting about uni and the HSC, Im gonna go get some sleep and try to get rid of this headahce ):

Take care
- Cindy.

First Post :)

Hello there!

So...this is my first post. To be honest, I don't really know why I made this blog, and I don't know who'll be reading this - if anyone at all. Maybe it'll just be a place for me to let out my emotions and to share thoughts on the day-to-day happenings of my life...

- Cindy.